Motivation for life

I did something that was much needed and I did it without really knowing I was doing it. I spend most of last week just watching videos, working out hard and thinking about my life. I spent some time thinking about poker but I also spent quite a bit of time thinking of a simpler time. I miss the days of being driven by music and I'm finding that love again. Music in a way led me to where I find myself currently in my life. Yes I love poker very much and love the freedom it provides but I have a new concept of it. In everything I want I have always wanted to be the best and to get to the top. I realize that I may never tour the world and/or play 500/1000 but I had always aspired for that. What I'm saying is basically that I want a life that is simpler and allows me to be happy. I want to play poker and music and not attach results and let it flow. I think the secret to being successful in anything is doing what you love regardless of the outcome and/or income. So my plan for the year is as follows and no matter what happens I can say I did it and it made me happy.

1. Buff

2. Vegas for 6 weeks

3. Record Music

4. Breathe

Sure I would like amazing results in everything but I would just like to be happy doing them. I want these things to make me happy and serve me, not enslave me as they have before. I truly feel if I detach the result I will have the best possible outcome. Mainly because I'm consumed by the outcome of everything and it's driving me nuts. I have all these results and things I "want" and the way i went about getting them has served me well. Now I am trying a new mindset and feel that no matter what happens, this is the best way I can live for me. I feel we can all have the things we choose but wanting them will only create that result. I no longer want my life but I have and will always choose it.

Happy Trails

Moved and a Week 2 update

So this week is week 2 of the velocity diet which is going well. I have really gotten into working out and getting in shape for the summer. I have been going to the gym everyday and sometimes even twice a day which is good. It's not easy and I have wanted to quit a few times but I can't stop now since I'm half way done. I'm stronger, sleep better and just feel good all around. Poker is going meh still which is ok I guess but rather lame. It's normal and I know I will bounce back soon. Weird thing is with working out and have something else going on it makes everything else easier to deal with. That being said I have been semi emo lately perhaps from the supplements and my body changing. I also did something really nice yesterday which is semi unlike me. Some asshole in a big truck smashed into a little old lady in a tiny car going about 50 and took off! I chased him down and helped the piggies catch him. I also went back to the scence to see if the lady was ok and if she needed help. Bless her heart, she was all banged up but her main concern was the car that was completely totaled. I normally would mind my own but this was quite wrong and I felt I needed to step in. Soon after as I sat in my room thinking good karma is in the way, a bee flew in. So naturally I couldn't kill him so I had to chase and capture this little fellow, not easy. I also went out with some friend's to see the band Sevendust who are always really good. During the set I ran into a friend of mine who was semi drunk and just started randomly grinding and making out with me. It was kinda awkward as she was tipsy and with her brother who was watching out for her. It was quite funny watching her expain to him "hes my friend and I can make out with him if I want" I wondered what the onlookers thought as she would hug on him and he would pull her away then come back and make out with me. Needless to say when the set ended I bailed as I prefer my ladies cognative and discrett. I have also been playing a decent amount of guitar again and writting new songs. After the summer and the WSOP I plan on taking music very serious again and plan on recording some stuff with some talented friends. That's pretty much the cliff notes of life right now for me. I also now have a twitter if you are on it and want to follow me. Have a good week!!

http://twitter.com/basquiatcase

Le Lion Rawr!!

Well things are good for me right now and I don't have much to complain about. I have been working out hard and going to the gym everyday. I lost like 7 lbs. since last week which is kinda crazy. Most of days are filled with grinding and working out and that's really it. I also got a new guitar and have started writing music again which I'm really stoked on. I have always felt my main true calling is music and after the summer I plan on making a good record with some good friends. I also was scared about my taxes but did them in 20 mins and actually get some money back, ship it !!The low stakes grinding is nice and stress free and going the way I expected. Though I did have a bit of trouble putting in the amount of games I wanted, I'm still fine with it. I just wanted to stop losing money and work on me and still play. Many times I have wanted to just deposit and move back up since I'm over rolled but I enjoy the challenge. I'm also about to book my place in Vegas for 6 weeks for the WSOP. I was going to get a house with some friend's but this place is a block from the Rio and while not super baller is good enough. I really only need a place to sleep and possibly away from the partying so its cool. Sometime this week I'm moving back up in stakes to my normal games and just planning on grinding 100 games a day as well as doing 8 miles of low cardio along with my 4 times a week workout. I'm really getting into the whole working out thing and I feel really good about it. I'm totally of the mindset that if you get in great shape it can only help your game. Either in poker or with the ladies and dare I say.. both

Seriously though I feel the best I have felt in a long time and I don't remeber where I read something that has stuck with me all week. It was something along the lines of if you are a lion and work hard at being the lion, you truly are confident in being the king of the jungle since you can own it. The wording is a bit off but that was the general concept that stuck with me. I truly do feel that with work,balance and faith the lion can move mountains. The lion doesn't want much just good vibes, some run good and maybe a hip lioness to play with. For now this lion is of to go see Trapt rock out. Then the other 4 miles and zero rest V-Burn challenge. Holla Holla

Humbled for less stress

Is how I feel since for poker things have not been good at all. Though I have fixed that currently and have an easy way to rebuild I feel humbled as the title says. For one I got a cold at the street fest and had to stop my diet/workout routine and eat some normal food. Mainly because my body felt like it needed it and I could not work out in the condition I was in. So this week we started again for a new 6 weeks. I also basically bustoed my stars account and am rebuilding the old fashioned way which is also inspired by the Boku87 pro bet. I am playing lower stakes sngs where my roi is 20%+ and I make $1-2 a game. This is a grind but I am playing 100+ games a day and running a little better then expected so far.
I just don't want the stress of losing more money and if you can print money at the lower stakes I say do it. So basically my plan is to grind the 150 dollars I had left in my account into 10K. While I'm not going to do it in 15 days like Boku I think it should take me about 8 weeks at most. I think after that I will go back to playing my normal games and more cash. The workout diet thing last 6 weeks so I'm aiming to have the new me and the grind done around the same time. It's a good goal and I'm happy doing it since I need my life stress free to prepair for the summer. I also played that live big HA game and basically ran really bad. NO ONE folds because they don't care about the money and I have just gotten unlucky for several 1k+ pots. Again I just don't need stress so I'm going to swim with the fishies for a little while. I also told my brother I would teach him to do what I'm doing at the low stakes so this is good practice as he comes home from school soon. Already running at about 2 buxs a game so ship 1k games a week and 1-2k profit and holla holla. Saw Paper Route again Sunday and they are amazing for sure. Also went out on Saturday and had a great amazing time with my friends. So I'm going into this week happy that I already got my workout routine and groove down since I did "week 1" already. I'm also happy that I will just work hard like most people and see the results of just grinding it out. Oh I also did lose 7lbs. in the 1st week of the diet but put a few back on while not working out and eatting. So i am starting again weighting less, ship it. I already played about 100 games though I think I'm going to go run and hit the sauna. Feels good to be a bit ahead of my targets and I'm happy living a stress free, humbled week. Good luck to everyone this week